So damn busy

WOW ! School has been so busy, I didn’t know what to do first. I had tons of homework and I had to go to my work. When I came home I could almost cry because I couldn’t do anything so I had to start with all my papers and presentations. I’d rather stayed home but I couldn’t do that, I couldn’t miss any classes. I am so happy Monday is over but I still feel the stress from that moment. My week really sucked but yeah that’s life, isn’t it? I had already watched all the episodes of “Criminal Minds” so I was realllyyy bored lol. Does anybody know some good series?

Happily it’s next week vacation so I can relax a bit. I will also learn how to drive better and I really look forward to it!

Enjoy your day and I wish you the best with everything you do.

Love

 

What is happening?

What a week huh. Nothing is going normal, everything is so strange. My grandpa has been hospitalized a couple times and I was so scared that he would die. Everyone was like supporting my mother and grandma and nobody thought that I could have a hard time too.  My grandma kept saying that they were so happy with a daughter like my mother is and I was sitting there like okay. I do know that they love me too and just didn’t see it the way I did but still…

That wasn’t the only thing that was happening last week. I’m in my last year and our most important subject in my course is biology. I’m really not good in it and I don’t like it, not because of our teacher because she’s very sweet, just because it’s really hard. You might be thinking, why did she choose for that subject then? I don’t know either but I thought I would be happy later when I would go to college. We will see if I’ll be happy but most important if I don’t have good grades for biology, I think I’ll have to do my year again and I’m so scared for that. She didn’t give any tests and now it’s the only thing she does. My grades are like really not good, we had 3 tests and I failed for 2 tests. The average for the 3 tests is 39% so I don’t know how I will save my grades. Ughhh school… and it’s not the only subject, they’re all worse but not like biology.

These were already 2 things of my list from thing that went wrong, then you still have the fight with my mom, a stupid guy who likes me in my class and who won’t leave me alone, the bad weather and me being lonely AF at and after valentine’s day.

Hope you don’t have a stupid week! Bye.

 

 

 

 

It’s complicated…

Hi everyone

Today has been such a complicated day. In the beginning of the day everything looked fine, like a normal day. Suddenly I couldn’t do anything, I couldn’t focus on studying, … after reading a page, I told myself I needed a break and started watching the “Criminal Minds” marathon. I was so tired and it was like 3pm. My dad wanted to learn me how to drive like he did yesterday. Yesterday everything went fine, it was like I had practised a hundred times. Because of that I had a really good feeling, I thought I was killing it. Today showed me I wasn’t, the car kept blocking and I got really scared and wanted to step out of the car and go home. My dad doesn’t give up that fast so I had to keep trying. I wasn’t happy at all. When I came home I started watching the other episodes of “Criminal Minds” and my crush (REID, Matthew Gray Gubler) was being abducted and tortured. Tears were rolling down my face, even if I knew it wasn’t real. Guess I was just having a mental breakdown or being oversensitive again. My day just wasn’t good and I feel terrible. Gonna post this tomorrow. Bye.

What next???

Hello everyone,

I’m in my final year and the only thing everything talks about is what they are going to study next year. I’m also thinking about it and it’s so hard because you have to make a decision for (probably) the rest of your life. I still feel too young to make such a big decision. If I could choose, I would first finish this year and then travel the world, think about what I want to do with my life and then come back and study a bit longer. I think I would be a bit wiser then and I will know more about myself. There are like so many things you can study for and I have no idea what I really want. First I was really sure what I wanted to do in my life but know I don’t have a clue.

I’m dreaming of becoming an actress but I have like really zero experience and I don’t know anybody who’s in the movie industry, so there goes my dream. It’s so weird because I really do think that I will get there but I don’t take any steps to get there.

I hope you really know what you want to study and you are sure of it and if you don’t, don’t worry, you’re not the only one. Bye 🙂

 

Hello, let me introduce myself…

Hello everyone, welcome to my blog. I’m just writing my thoughts and you don’t have to agree with anything I say. I just make this blog for myself, to have something I can look to when I’m older. It’s sort of a diary and in a few years I will be able to see what’s going through my head when I was younger. It can be kinda boring so hope you don’t mind.

Enjoy and feel free to comment! Bye.