The cold war & you

Well hi again

I have 2 thing to talk about this time (double trouble)

1: HE ASKEDDDD MEEE, Yes the guy I talked about did finally officially ask me to prom, I thought that he changed his mind because it took long enough. So I was very happy and our friends were watching us and I couldn’t stop smiling. My friends were so happy for me and I couldn’t think about anything else for daysss. But now weekend is over and I still feel kind of weird because he almost doesn’t talk to me at school and other days we don’t do anything else. I guess it’s because exams started today & that brings me to my other topic.

2: Examens: Oh god, hell no! So today I had my first exams and I feel like they were terrible. So tomorrow I have history and geography and I’m dying. It’s a really strange topic to learn because our books are so messy.  In history it’s about the cold war and it’s interesting but I just don’t like to study. I literally red my book the whole day and I didn’t really study study :/  I will try to get up tomorrow a bit earlier. I really hope I can pass my exams because I really want to go to high school.

Good luck with your exams if you have some

love -A

Lost in broken love

Hi everyone, it’s me again

So I told you about the guy who I had a relationship with last year and with who I’m still kind of in love I think? So I got some updates, my friend talked to him and she told me that he said that he still has feelings for me but he’s in two minds because he likes another girl too (the other girl I talked about in the previous post). So I knew it ! I’m kind of happy and sad.  Happy because I don’t see things that aren’t real and  sad because he loves somebody else. So she asked about how I felt so she could tell him and I said that I didn’t want to start over because he isn’t 100% sure if he wants me or not. He’s always surrounded by girls and I feel like he’s making everybody in love with him. I know that in my class there were 4 girls in love with him (actually 5 if you count me too).

But here’s the big news, my friend told me that she talked to him the day after and he said that he has chosen for me and not that other girl. He said that he didn’t see himself being with her. So I am happy but I don’t know what to do because next year we won’t see each other again. She also told me that he wanted to ask me for prom but he would only do it if my answer would be yes. I know it’s stupid but I told her that I would say yes if he asked. She was surprised but however I know that we won’t have a relationship, I can’t help loving him so much. I would really do anything for him, he’s also texting me and he’s being so sweet. Now I’m just waiting till he asks me and I’m stressing for what I will wear and how my classmates will react (because not everyone knows we had a relationship, we kept it quiet). What I don’t know either is what he’s expecting to happen at prom because it’s really complicated between us.

You may laugh & you really can but our relationship didn’t last long. We were together for about a month and we hadn’t kiss, what means that I still need to have my first kiss. My friends are really laughing with this but however I’m really freaking out!

Any advice? Feel free to comment ❤

Love A.

You with somebody else?

Hi

You may not know it but last year I was in a really short relationship with somebody of my class. I was already in love with him in the beginning of the year but we were together around January. I met him the first day of september because I had to change from school. We were together for about a month and we broke up because we were having a fight. He had sent me a text to tell me it was over. I was so mad at him because he didn’t even do the effort to tell me in person. So I did was a bit upset but I was so mad that I couldn’t cry.

Now we’re one year later and I’m still in the same class as him, next year we’re going to college so we will never see each other again. I have to admit that I’m still not really over him. I thought I was but when we see each other or text, all the feelings are coming back. Sometimes he hugs me or puts his arm around my neck and then I feel like I’m melting but I never wanted to admit that till today. In our friend group (yes, we still have the same friends) there’s a new girl from another class. She’s really nice and we are like the same. I do like her and so does he. Now I feel like he does the same with her as with me and it feels so weird, it’s like he’s in love with her and that hurts. He’s always close with people that’s just who he is but he was never so close with somebody like he was with me  until now. I feel so disappointed because I really believed I was over him. Clearly not.

See you soon and thanks for listening to my complain ❤

A.

It has been a while …

Hey guys

First of all sorry for not posting for such a long time. I had a lot to do and also a lot to deal with. I went 2 weeks on an internship in a hospital but I couldn’t do much because I’m not a nursing student. I just had to wash people, talk to them, clean tables and I could rarely take parameters. As you can see, I didn’t really like it because it was kind of boring. However, it was a nice experience and I learned a lot and I met a few interesting people there. I learned a lot about life, so that’s never bad. Hope you had a fun week!

See you soon, cheers

Ps: I actually wrote this post a few days ago but my wifi didn’t work so I posted it today ❤

Vacation time :)

Well hi everyoneeee!

In the country I live in, it’s vacation. As you can think I do have a lot of time (1 week), or not. I think it’s short but however it’s better than going to school. I have bought a new bed because my other was to small, I bought it in IKEA and as you may know, it’s hard to install things from IKEA. BUTTT I did it and I’m so happy for that. It wasn’t easy to bring my mattress upwards because my room is all the way at the top of my house and it wasn’t really easy. Now everything is installed and I feel so happy that I bought it, I’m redesigning my room and it feels so good!!

On the other hand, I planned to study a lot this vacation and I literally haven’t done anything. I feel so bad for that but yeah it isn’t everyday vacation isn’t it?

Enjoy your day, I hope the sun is shining where you live but I can tell you, it’s very cold here and it’s raining every day. Thank you for reading my post.

Loveee

Music makes life

Hiiii

Decided to make a total different post, a post where I will talk about music! My big love! There’s nothing that makes life better than this. I can’t read musical notes (is that right?, I don’t speak english so I don’t know lol), but however my dad can and he has learned me some songs to play. Another thing what I love about music is LISTENING TO IT!!! Thank you to whoever who has made earphones, I LOVE YOUUU!!! There are so much different music styles and it’s like it’s made for every emotion. It helps me every moment I’m feeling something and even if I feel empty music helps. Have you already heard Selena Gomez’ new song called “It ain’t me”? I literally like it so much, it’s amazing.

My top 10:

  1. It ain’t me – Kygo, Selena Gomez
  2. Shape of you – Ed Sheeran
  3. Love me now – John Legend
  4. Starving – Hailee Steinfeld
  5. Castle on the hill – Ed Sheeran
  6. Say you won’t let go – James Arthur
  7. 24K -Bruno Mars
  8. Secret love song – Little Mix
  9. Closer – The Chainsmokers
  10. Fight Song – COVER of Calysta Bevier

LOVEEEE

Positive vibes

Heyyy

Just thought about the fact that I’m alway negative in my posts while I’m a very positive person in daily life. So I’m going to try talk about nice things too. I usually just say the things that frustrate me but that must be so boring for you. My hobby is dancing and I just came home from my dance lessons, I really like it. It’s more Hiphop style and we can dance on Popmusic. I’m feeling like I’m getting better and better (but not good enough to participate in contests). So what, I can really relax by listening to music, it can help me with how I feel that day. If I’m happy, music makes me feel happier. If I’m nervous it can make me calm. Music is just amazing, I love it!

LOVEEE ❤

So damn busy

WOW ! School has been so busy, I didn’t know what to do first. I had tons of homework and I had to go to my work. When I came home I could almost cry because I couldn’t do anything so I had to start with all my papers and presentations. I’d rather stayed home but I couldn’t do that, I couldn’t miss any classes. I am so happy Monday is over but I still feel the stress from that moment. My week really sucked but yeah that’s life, isn’t it? I had already watched all the episodes of “Criminal Minds” so I was realllyyy bored lol. Does anybody know some good series?

Happily it’s next week vacation so I can relax a bit. I will also learn how to drive better and I really look forward to it!

Enjoy your day and I wish you the best with everything you do.

Love

 

What is happening?

What a week huh. Nothing is going normal, everything is so strange. My grandpa has been hospitalized a couple times and I was so scared that he would die. Everyone was like supporting my mother and grandma and nobody thought that I could have a hard time too.  My grandma kept saying that they were so happy with a daughter like my mother is and I was sitting there like okay. I do know that they love me too and just didn’t see it the way I did but still…

That wasn’t the only thing that was happening last week. I’m in my last year and our most important subject in my course is biology. I’m really not good in it and I don’t like it, not because of our teacher because she’s very sweet, just because it’s really hard. You might be thinking, why did she choose for that subject then? I don’t know either but I thought I would be happy later when I would go to college. We will see if I’ll be happy but most important if I don’t have good grades for biology, I think I’ll have to do my year again and I’m so scared for that. She didn’t give any tests and now it’s the only thing she does. My grades are like really not good, we had 3 tests and I failed for 2 tests. The average for the 3 tests is 39% so I don’t know how I will save my grades. Ughhh school… and it’s not the only subject, they’re all worse but not like biology.

These were already 2 things of my list from thing that went wrong, then you still have the fight with my mom, a stupid guy who likes me in my class and who won’t leave me alone, the bad weather and me being lonely AF at and after valentine’s day.

Hope you don’t have a stupid week! Bye.

 

 

 

 

It’s complicated…

Hi everyone

Today has been such a complicated day. In the beginning of the day everything looked fine, like a normal day. Suddenly I couldn’t do anything, I couldn’t focus on studying, … after reading a page, I told myself I needed a break and started watching the “Criminal Minds” marathon. I was so tired and it was like 3pm. My dad wanted to learn me how to drive like he did yesterday. Yesterday everything went fine, it was like I had practised a hundred times. Because of that I had a really good feeling, I thought I was killing it. Today showed me I wasn’t, the car kept blocking and I got really scared and wanted to step out of the car and go home. My dad doesn’t give up that fast so I had to keep trying. I wasn’t happy at all. When I came home I started watching the other episodes of “Criminal Minds” and my crush (REID, Matthew Gray Gubler) was being abducted and tortured. Tears were rolling down my face, even if I knew it wasn’t real. Guess I was just having a mental breakdown or being oversensitive again. My day just wasn’t good and I feel terrible. Gonna post this tomorrow. Bye.