Summertime changes


First of all, my whole class graduated!!!!!!!!! Tonight is the proclamation and I’m exciteeeddddd! Finally a new change in my life, new school, new subject, new people, … Tomorrow is prom and I will tell you all about it after that and I’ll talk about my date too. But saturday night there was a barbecue at my teachers house and we could sleep there in tents if we wanted to. But at the same time it was also the birthday night of my date for prom. Things are getting really complicated between us so I wasn’t sure if I would give him a birthday gift. So I decided to give him his Valentine gift from last year. (Yes, he broke up with me a few days before valentine so I had already bought his gift). But I forgot it at home, it was a perfume of AXE, it wasn’t very expensive but we were dating almost a month so I did’t had to be the most expensive gift. The perfume smells sooo good so I guess I will keep it till I have a boyfriend to give that to him later.

Now my ex is really a difficult character, he gets really fast mad and he has often trouble with his friend. He’s also a bit attention-addicted so he isn’t the easiest guy on earth. However I got with him to prom but now that the day comes closer, I’m not looking forward to it. At the barbecue I was talking to my other friend but he’s really sweet and nice. I have told him about how I feel about my parents divorce and about how after 12 years I still struggle with it. He really listened to me and told me also personal things about himself. I never told anybody how I felt about it, so I was very relieved that I could tell him. The problem with him is that he was/is (IDK) in love with me so it’s also not really simple between us neither but I trust him. Some people really laugh with him because he doesn’t really smell well but I must admit that sometimes it irritates me too.

But yeah, I guess everyone has good and bad characteristics.

Love you all byeeee


The cold war & you

Well hi again

I have 2 thing to talk about this time (double trouble)

1: HE ASKEDDDD MEEE, Yes the guy I talked about did finally officially ask me to prom, I thought that he changed his mind because it took long enough. So I was very happy and our friends were watching us and I couldn’t stop smiling. My friends were so happy for me and I couldn’t think about anything else for daysss. But now weekend is over and I still feel kind of weird because he almost doesn’t talk to me at school and other days we don’t do anything else. I guess it’s because exams started today & that brings me to my other topic.

2: Exams: Oh god, hell no! So today I had my first exams and I feel like they were terrible. So tomorrow I have history and geography and I’m dying. It’s a really strange topic to learn because our books are so messy.  In history it’s about the cold war and it’s interesting but I just don’t like to study. I literally red my book the whole day and I didn’t really study study :/  I will try to get up tomorrow a bit earlier. I really hope I can pass my exams because I really want to go to high school.

Good luck with your exams if you have some

love -A

Lost in broken love

Hi everyone, it’s me again

So I told you about the guy who I had a relationship with last year and with who I’m still kind of in love I think? So I got some updates, my friend talked to him and she told me that he said that he still has feelings for me but he’s in two minds because he likes another girl too (the other girl I talked about in the previous post). So I knew it ! I’m kind of happy and sad.  Happy because I don’t see things that aren’t real and  sad because he loves somebody else. So she asked about how I felt so she could tell him and I said that I didn’t want to start over because he isn’t 100% sure if he wants me or not. He’s always surrounded by girls and I feel like he’s making everybody in love with him. I know that in my class there were 4 girls in love with him (actually 5 if you count me too).

But here’s the big news, my friend told me that she talked to him the day after and he said that he has chosen for me and not that other girl. He said that he didn’t see himself being with her. So I am happy but I don’t know what to do because next year we won’t see each other again. She also told me that he wanted to ask me for prom but he would only do it if my answer would be yes. I know it’s stupid but I told her that I would say yes if he asked. She was surprised but however I know that we won’t have a relationship, I can’t help loving him so much. I would really do anything for him, he’s also texting me and he’s being so sweet. Now I’m just waiting till he asks me and I’m stressing for what I will wear and how my classmates will react (because not everyone knows we had a relationship, we kept it quiet). What I don’t know either is what he’s expecting to happen at prom because it’s really complicated between us.

You may laugh & you really can but our relationship didn’t last long. We were together for about a month and we hadn’t kiss, what means that I still need to have my first kiss. My friends are really laughing with this but however I’m really freaking out!

Any advice? Feel free to comment ❤

Love A.

You with somebody else?


You may not know it but last year I was in a really short relationship with somebody of my class. I was already in love with him in the beginning of the year but we were together around January. I met him the first day of september because I had to change from school. We were together for about a month and we broke up because we were having a fight. He had sent me a text to tell me it was over. I was so mad at him because he didn’t even do the effort to tell me in person. So I did was a bit upset but I was so mad that I couldn’t cry.

Now we’re one year later and I’m still in the same class as him, next year we’re going to college so we will never see each other again. I have to admit that I’m still not really over him. I thought I was but when we see each other or text, all the feelings are coming back. Sometimes he hugs me or puts his arm around my neck and then I feel like I’m melting but I never wanted to admit that till today. In our friend group (yes, we still have the same friends) there’s a new girl from another class. She’s really nice and we are like the same. I do like her and so does he. Now I feel like he does the same with her as with me and it feels so weird, it’s like he’s in love with her and that hurts. He’s always close with people that’s just who he is but he was never so close with somebody like he was with me  until now. I feel so disappointed because I really believed I was over him. Clearly not.

See you soon and thanks for listening to my complain ❤